It is hard to keep passion alive in life and keep achieving new heights that we are proud of all our life. I was recently with a relative who came with a one way ticket to USA with almost nothing in his pocket. He worked hard to become a millionaire. It is extraordinary then that he finds it difficult to find new purposes that elicit the same passion.
Story is same for me. I cleared ultra-competitive IIT entrance exams against all odds. Came to USA on scholarship and made it my home. But now I miss the passion that led me here. How can I rekindle that fire?
The hard work for IIT was fueled by many reasons. Prime amongst them the desire to escape slum like conditions at home, a desire to show people who look us down or take revenge on those who treated us unfairly, a desire also to show girls my age my worthiness, a desire to achieve excellence etc. These set of negative positive driving forces all led to the same end goal - IIT. IIT was the magic that would answer all questions.
I many times have tried to make artificial goals like learning French or building muscles only to end us forgetting them or not achieving these goals. I identify a lack of passion as the main reason for failure. I wonder why I don't have passion. Do I have to have reasons like taking revenge or showing off to someone necessarily to get myself motivated enough along the way? it is worth to note one of the recent endeavor that might throw some light on possible answers,
Recently I prepared for MBA admission. I had prepared for GMAT many times with same results. I did not apply, though. I Just keep on delaying, first it was not great score, then choice of school. I just did not feel the passion. But something happened in the new job. It was in a remote place. It was similar in content to my previous job and this, I knew I was preparing for a disappointment later. My son is growing up and I do not want to bring him up in this remote place. This combination propelled me to apply despite all my job duties and duties related to raising a child. I succeeded in my efforts to get in a MBA program in world's top 5.
It appear to me that the passions originates from within and there are generally many reasons leading to the same passion/goal. Everything is answered by this one goal and we immerse ourselves completely to achieve it. But the goal making is not artificial. It is not that we can decide at one instance to build our body or learn French. It is more of a intricate play of various necessities and desires that culminate into one final sentence that propels us for action.
Story is same for me. I cleared ultra-competitive IIT entrance exams against all odds. Came to USA on scholarship and made it my home. But now I miss the passion that led me here. How can I rekindle that fire?
The hard work for IIT was fueled by many reasons. Prime amongst them the desire to escape slum like conditions at home, a desire to show people who look us down or take revenge on those who treated us unfairly, a desire also to show girls my age my worthiness, a desire to achieve excellence etc. These set of negative positive driving forces all led to the same end goal - IIT. IIT was the magic that would answer all questions.
I many times have tried to make artificial goals like learning French or building muscles only to end us forgetting them or not achieving these goals. I identify a lack of passion as the main reason for failure. I wonder why I don't have passion. Do I have to have reasons like taking revenge or showing off to someone necessarily to get myself motivated enough along the way? it is worth to note one of the recent endeavor that might throw some light on possible answers,
Recently I prepared for MBA admission. I had prepared for GMAT many times with same results. I did not apply, though. I Just keep on delaying, first it was not great score, then choice of school. I just did not feel the passion. But something happened in the new job. It was in a remote place. It was similar in content to my previous job and this, I knew I was preparing for a disappointment later. My son is growing up and I do not want to bring him up in this remote place. This combination propelled me to apply despite all my job duties and duties related to raising a child. I succeeded in my efforts to get in a MBA program in world's top 5.
It appear to me that the passions originates from within and there are generally many reasons leading to the same passion/goal. Everything is answered by this one goal and we immerse ourselves completely to achieve it. But the goal making is not artificial. It is not that we can decide at one instance to build our body or learn French. It is more of a intricate play of various necessities and desires that culminate into one final sentence that propels us for action.
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