Monday, February 18, 2008

My focus now is to

1- make myself fit
2- focus on what people do- learn from their lives - two blogs i am reading on them-

http://isbclassof2008.blogspot.com/
dilbertblog.typepad.com/

i have a strange feeling that the last one might not help. But it will surely be helpful to enhance my sense of humor which I have started lacking after working in a sterile environment for 1 year.

Few points from ISB junta

- Someone pointed out four important things for living a full life
  • be fit
  • be nice
  • be smart
  • be drive

I feel i am none of the above right now. But I also feel that the last property is what brings all the rest. Whenever I had purpose, I achieved fitness, smartness and may be niceness (not too sure). But whenever I achieved my purpose, I slowly surrendered to laziness (to enjoy the fruits of my achievement). I have the realization that I could never enjoy the fruits. The journey was always more exciting than the destination.

May be being fit, nice and smart is our purpose? And other purposes are subset of this big purpose.

Two month in India after one year of frustating job in USA

I have come here for one month vacation which thanks to Visa officers (VO) at Mumbai has now extended to well over 5 weeks now. And I mean it when I thank them, the only thing is that now the process has taken so long I have begun to regret thinking of this curse as a blessing in disguise. To tell you the truth, I had not been to India for 2 years and started to suffer pangs of jealousy whenever I read stories of riches in India. I wanted to be in India and was secrately planning my move to India a year later. I still beleive on my planning but challenges are forcing me to seek first the easier way out i.e. going back to what I was doing in USA.

So first the Visa story, I went to visa office for interview and they could not get my fingerprint. I think I also flunk my interview (I might have looked bored which I was after sitting for 4hrs on a bench) because the VO lady looked suspiciousely at me and ordered me to come for fingerprinting again and submit a qualification questionnaire. Me and my wife looked at my fingers and could not find finger grooves. My skin was peeling. We went again 4 days later after submitting documents to them via email. They took my fingerprints and told me to collect the passport in the evening. I collected the passort with visa stamped with a sigh of relief and left for vacation for next two day only to get a call the next day from visa office. I went to visa office and they asked me to submit my document in word format and cancelled my visa. I asked the reason and they told me that they will do security check and let me know in a week or two. Strange!! very strange!! but what I can do to them I thought. I wrote emails and called them up but here I am, still waiting. I was disppointed and angry on the day they cancelled visa and thought they have done some admistrative bungling in the processing. I still think so. However, secretaly I was also happy that I will have now more time in Mumbai. Lets party and figure out what is my market worth, what I can do in India?

I am in Mumbai for last five weeks looking for jobs (research and development in materials) and thinking about different things I can do. Following things I find in Mumbai-


- There are very few good paying jobs in areas other than IT.
- Connections are everything in finding a non-IT job (even true in USA)
- Core research and development jobs are few
- Consultants mainly for IT but there are some for non-IT but again they are not big firms

other things
- Big difference between rich and poor people
- Poor infrastructure (roads, rail, you can not get 1-2 mbps network at reasonable price in Mumbai)
- lack of information (internet is not the main source)

I am little confused on what I should do next (part of the reason is that I dream big but have difficultly in taking firm dicision which all involve quite a bit of risks. also, may be the biggest reason is that I am not sure what I like to in my life.) Things are not clear. Options which come to my mind are following

- Trying to find a job in existing R&Ds
- Enterpreneur (opening a online shop or online site with a good idea, manufacturing unit). But I suspect if I have enough experience.
- Become prof.
- Go on travel to focus on what I want to do rest of my life
- Prepare and go for an MBA (i do not want to rush without having an idea about what I really enjoy doing. i fear that I might end up in a similar job which I will not enjoy. In my last job, I realized how much I hate doing what I dont enjoy. It drains all the energy from me and leave me depressed and frustated at the end of the day).

Do you have an idea of what I should do?